[ Friday, June 06, 2003 ]
so, i got accepted into the electronic media design program at langara...
a little scary. well. not really. its something, tho... a feeling that i can't quite put my finger on. as i was walking up main (down main? it was uphill...) kinda reflecting on the future, the past, ... i felt like my life was changing from ... from a feeling of free fall, to , like, walking through water.. so. more control . and the water seems warm enough.
the financial side... that seems a bit bizzare. money is a fucking strange thing. debt! jeez. scary? not yet. maybe it'll scare me once its too late. huge amounts of money... 16k.... plus living money.. . . ... i guess its not too late to bail out of it. but i think that taking the program is the right thing to do. i was talking to greg, the program director, and i told him that it just seemed like time... time to take control of my life, time to get some tools, time to learn things that i don't have time/direction enough to figure out just screwing around on my own.
now i need to find a part time job so i can screw around on my own for a while :) ... like. . . goodbye freedom, hello debt, hello topless wreck beach girls. a last taste of fucking around. probably not in the literal sex type sense, i mean, maybe, hah, hopefully , but i really mean in the lounging on the beach sense.
its like a mantra, repeat it, make it true, beach beach beach beach beach.
beach.
belch.
blach.
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Escaper [6/06/2003 05:25:00 PM]
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